Ma

i knew her scent.
too sweet to get unnoticed,
or is it unique,peculiar or distinct.
still my favourite...

she took me in her arms,
giving out her radiations of love,
hugging her newborn,
as if I belonged to her for centuries.

i learn to crawl,
not leaving me for a minute,
she still gave me my freedom,
so that i learn and earn my life.

my first word,
honestly, i don't know.
what i know is that she would never leave me,
first to accept and never to reject.

i grow.
from a tiny tot i become a teenager.
she is my best friend,my only companion,
in my worse and in the best.

i fight,i rebel,i misbehave.
i wan't to be like my dad,
always dominating,powerful,working.
still, she says you are my only love.

now i know,
i can never be like her,
i miss her and cry for her,
now i know, what it is to be like a mother.

I

i am the wind.
i may blow like a soothing breeze to caress the young hearts,
or i may blow like a ferocious storm, enough to tear a mountain into its parts..

i am the ocean,
i may be gentle enough to let the sailors pass,
or i may rise enough to form a tsunami, without caring about anybody 's past..

i am the rain.
i may be tender enough to fall as tears from my God's eyes,
or i may thunder upon and care not whoever drowns and dies..

i am the wind because i am determined,
and i will blow whatever may be the case.
i am the ocean because i am vast,
and i can take in whatever is given to me.
i am the rain because i am persistent,
and i will never stop till my last drop is consumed.

i am a woman.
whose sharpness of her pen is greater than her tongue,
whose vision can startle anybody and whose focus is done.
and who is capable enough to present her thoughts to you,to the world,to the universe...

Flight

the sparrow flew in the air to spread its wings,
magnificently she swerved and dived.
how she loved herself because of her admirers,
least that she knew that her foes were not behind..

from somewhere came our big enemy,
thriving as she thrived.
not a moment lost as he did his work,
the young bird saw his mother as she died..

devoid of food with no shelter,
the little bird could not survive.
how much he loved his mother we don't know,
but his sorrows could not hide..

thus a family ended with no beginning,
a perfect example of how we divide.
life is the big enemy i must say,
and we are the sparrows without the flight..

my shit moments

Now this is about my deadly interaction with guys. Everybody has been telling me to talk normally with them but to tell u the truth i become a nerd, i become dumb and moreover i become totally paralyzed(mentally!!!!!!!!!) you must be thinking she is exaggerating the phenomenon, but to prove it to you you have to read this....
I am in 12 th standard and like millions of kids in India i am going to my coaching center( worst days of my life) and its a very bad weather . Its raining like hell and me and my scooty are already drenched till skin.
now we(me and my scooty) are at the parking area (which had ankle length water already and it seemed like it is screaming in pain "please repair me!!!!") and waiting to park. One guy about my age but skimpy and puny (physically) got his scooty trapped in the pothole in the parking area . Since my scooty was next to him he said "excuse me", indicating towards his vehicle. I looked at myself and then I looked at his tiny skeleton and like a good batch mate i decided to help him out. I rolled up my sleeves and took out my glasses and was about to help the guy to take out his scooty from the pothole when he said " no. no can you please move your vehicle"(shit!!!!!). Evidently he wanted to take out his vehicle himself and me and my scooty were in his way( oh lord!!!! how embarrassing) . Thus not only my self confidence got deflated but also my helpful nature went to hell....
I am at my sister's marriage and have already hidden the bridegroom's shoes. We are all cousins and we are five of them, so we were fighting for the money. So like good sisters we accepted 2000 bucks from him. There was this guy who was friend of the bridegroom . He was some years older than me and was an active participant in fighting for money and also a good security guard of the shoes( we were happy that we succeeded!!!!!1). Now time came to split the money and since i was holding it he asked me," how much is 2000 divided by 5?" As usual my brain stopped as our eyes met, my legs got numb and after thinking for a long time i blurted out "333.33 "(shit!!! again). He was looking at me in disbelief and then asked "awesome!!!!which class??" i boldly answered" eleventh science+maths" and ran off in the opposite direction. I did not look at him again(at least for the rest of the evening and don't dare to question my mathematics because its not that bad) So tell me is it really my fault??????

these are just trailers and i have more to go so please help me out!!!!!

PATRIOT

when i saw him for the last time,
wrapped in the Indian tricolor,
soldiers were carrying him on their shoulders,
I felt my heart divide.

with 21bullets fired in the air,
endless tears fell down my cheeks,
I stood numb in the hour of this deed,
but with my head held high..

his passion was his country,
and his dreams were of his motherland,
now lying motionless in the hands of his own people,
still looked divine.

his green attire was his destiny,
and the medals were his future,
now placed in the coffin,
looked peacefully pristine.

Raza was strong as he was my brother,
and me as Zara is the only one left for him.
suffered with a bullet on his iron chest,
died with the hands of his own religion.

Kashmir was the place from where he started,
and Kashmir was the place where he met his end.
today is the special day for him when,
he met with his God the shortest way.

how he died is not the question,
why is the answer to all queries.
nationality or religion?
his murderers thats what i can say.

SALVATION

The ray of hope is all gone,
I'm left to rotten from within.
It seems that even angels would never fetch me,
as i have done the greatest sin.

Empty cobwebs surround my body,
I'm left in the dungeons to leave this unfaithful world.
The pain, that i experience is excruciating,
I felt my soul depart.

Drop by drop my blood falls down,
inch by inch my cut goes deep.
I'm like the Christ himself,
nailed to the cross with no one to support.

I want to die, but death is late.
It seems that his revenge has ended.
I felt my body collapse,
and with the last breath i said it's over.

Now my spirit looms about this place
it encircles my body three times.
I see the pitiable state i am in,
and i wait for the God to shower the stars.

I waited till eternity,
but neither the devil nor my God came.
My body has now disintegrated beyond repair,
and i saw it surrender to the mother earth.

My only companions are my remains,while
I roam about in this place of doom.
Still in hope for someone to come,
ages have gone since my spirit was born.

Then somebody came,but
it was neither the devil nor the God.
A human in search of my remains,
in the dungeons where i dwell.

He dug for my bones and stored them in a box,
step by step i felt myself alive.
He then placed them in a coffin,
and displayed it on a square.

Was i a good man or bad one,
I can't remember.
But i had no end, as i am the shadow of my own body,
still wandering for someone to come.

I was still the same.
The only difference was, that i could look at the world.
How it has substantially changed,
Since i ceased to exist.

From dawn till dusk, i waited.
i listened, i followed and i observed.
I wanted to talk and could not do so,
and hated my life more and more.

Then one day , a child came,
sucking its thumb in its mouth.
Intently watching where i stood,
his eyes following my every move.

He stood there a long time,
and without a word he went to where he belonged.
No fear, no remorse, was that a spirit?
but my answer was yet to come.

He came again the next day,and many days after that,
sucking his thumb, he would look at me with his beetle eyes.
For hours he would stand, without any purpose,
then would go from where he came.

Then one day he did not come,
I became anxious for the little soul.
I could not describe you my feeling of discomfort,
for the little angel, who made me feel almost like a human.

For the first time in many years,
I felt alone.
And then out of nowhere, my little angel came and said,
"lets go", towards my freedom.

Then the stars fell down and my wait was over,
I felt clean and pure.
I left my body in that glass coffin for people to see,
and went with that child to cover the glorious path to heaven.

Special

"Who is the most important person in your life?"
somebody asked me.i thought it over and gave my answer,

"The one who will be behind me as my success,
the one who will remain beside me in my failures,
the one who will love me even when i don't have time to return the love,
the one who'll i seek during my darkest hour,
the one whom i will call anytime of the day and is sure to get an answer,
the one who will love me the way i am,
the one who will appreciate me even if i had done blunders,
the one who will correct me for the things i did wrongly,
the one who will protect me from the outside world,
the one who will be beside me when i am on the deathbed,
the one whom i want to see as the last human on earth before i depart to heaven or hell............................"
"Phhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhheeewwwwwwww!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
that was a long list, may i know who is this person?"that someone asked.
"My mother since my birth and my dad since i knew what i am(thanks to him)", i replied.

by your side

i will be in your sorrows, as tears,
i will be in your tears,as reflection,
because you will always find me by your side.

i will be in your work,as your success,
i will be in your success, as inspiration,
because you will always find me by your side.

i will be in your happiness,as your smile,
i will be in your smile, as pride,
because you will always find me by your side.

i will be in your death, as flowers,

i will be in the flowers, as dew,

because you will always find me by your side.

IN SEARCH OF LOVE

my heart,
untamed and free,
roams about in this world of prejudice,
searching for love.

for love may never be found,
for even it finds its destination,
it may never remain unintentonal.
so, i roam about this world of prejudice,
searching for love.

for love is devine,
it is like a dew drop which remains pure,only when untouched.
but can never remain everlasting.
so, i roam about in this world of prejudice,
searching for love.

for love is like an abstact painting,
where colours do not matter.
what matters,are your feelings towards it,which are sadly short.
so, i roam about this world of prejudice,
searching for love.

for love understands no boundaries,
nor caste,colour or creed,only for few.
but has no power to give you warmth forever.
so, i roam about in this world of predujice,
searching for love.

for love to me is undefined,
for love for me is new,still painful.
but i can't stop loving you even if you don't.
so, i roam about this world of prejudice,
searching for love.

tears

a tear dropped from my eye and asked,
"why let me fall when i am so precious?"
"why let me die when i am your best friend?"
"who said so?" i asked
"when you want to clean your heart, i am there."
"when you want to remember god, i am there."
"when there is pain beyond pain, i am there."
"when there is truth behind lies, i am there."
"in short, i am everywhere........"
and with that, it fell down my cheek.
yet again, i lost my best friend without realising it.

death

i lay in the darkness where i smelled hell,
with nobody around i held my breath,
is this heaven or hell?
no answer came.
slowly the moment arrived,
when my soul departed from its shell,
and i laid forgotten till the time came.
cries and tears awaited my return,
but now i know my god has come,
to take me away towards my solitude